I realise what i do is the worst... But i nvr wish it would be like this. I know that im false.. I try to remake my self. I try to be better than before. I try to erase my dark memories. I try to treat you as my friend... Yet, i can't! I nvr know why i can't.. Im too egoism. I just think abt my self... It's too hurt for me. They spies me! Wtf...

what must i do now? Shall i tell them the truth? Is it impossible? What will they thnk abt me aftr this? They'll hate me too much! Shall i pray? Or i shall pass away my self, shall not i? Should i beg to my parents that i don't want stay here anymore? It makes me to bea sucker! I need a solution! They've judged me! They've moacked me! Oh it's very nauseating!